I’m not trying to diagnose you, but you should look into Codependency.
https://positivepsychology.com/codependency-definition-signs-worksheets/
The TLDR for you is:
- If you are putting more into a relationship than you are getting out because you feel like you’re supposed to
- If you are feeling unworthy or inadequate
- You feel like you need the approval of others to feel happy about yourself
These could be signs of Codependency. A therapist is the answer here, but that can be expensive and hard to access depending on where you are. Another option is to check out books on the subject. Your local library should have some.
One last thing about your relationship with your parents. As you get older, so do they. The dynamic of your parents caring for you has shifted to where you care for yourself. Eventually it will shift to you and any siblings needing to care for them. This is a natural part of the parent child relationship, and shouldn’t be confused with the point above about relationships. They put in the effort when you were a child, and you’ll eventually have to put in the effort when they are seniors.
You’re welcome.
Don’t let the bitches get you down.