Fight or flight… avoid or smash… I think everybody is trying to find stable. If not it is a loop spun by a unhealthy environment. Internalize or not. The worm lives for now. On top of that we are all mortal which depending might be good. We are all waiting in line. You would have to define happy in great detail. Maybe there should be a word that encompasses healthy inline with the natural world.
Progressive health problems are progressing. Slowly losing my life more and more to these awful diseases. Every month another small capability dies, and my life shrinks again.
I try to focus on the short term, living day to day. That isn’t so bad, I’m reasonably happy. But sometimes I look up and remember the cliff edge approaching. I think that would disturb anybody.
I don’t know how to
Brain chemistry and resistance to medication.
Chronic fatigue and insomnia.
But I am. Check mate, atheists.
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What would be the point?
If you are happy you are a target, you still haven’t lost hope and you still have something that can be taken away.
I’m lonely and hate myself, and I hate myself too much to move towards not being lonely.
Also I’m in the Navy, and I work insane hours.
Why should I be?
Almost every issue I have right now goes back to billionaires, fascism, or capitalism. The last two years have been the most difficult of my life so far, and literally existential. I just nearly avoided statelessness and now I can’t legally work following a layoff, so I’ve been living off of savings
I have balls.
Because 46 and lost remote job, and after working a year from home dread having to go into work. Especially with gas what it is and I live in shit hole state with no public transportation. Add to the fact that I must try find work in this economy while dealing with ageism. Just fucking hate this shit.
and also your friends family nagigng on you for not having a job, or “clutching thier pearls” have to move back in with family.
I don’t really have any complaints, I’m just not a very happy person
Dunno
